Unfortunately I can go about the busy bustling of life without taking the time to stop and count my blessings… now, I KNOW I am blessed and I am incredibly thankful to my Lord for all the ways He has touched us with His merciful hand. I wake up in the morning and get busy making cancakes (pancakes) for the girls without realizing that just waking up to another beautiful day is a gift in itself. I’m sure we are all guilty of this to some level, but I tend to forget just how blessed I am until something in a conversation or something tangible catches my eye that makes it all come flooding back. It makes me emotional… I mean, how can it not?
So, yesterday at church I was talking to a friend who is thirty weeks pregnant… immediately I go there in my mind… sweet Emily. So many gracious gifts from my Heavenly Father where she is concerned. A happy ending that very easily could have been different. Then this morning Lila brought me a baby doll and one of Em’s sweet preemie outfits and asked me to help her get her baby dressed. As I held that precious outfit in my hands memories overwhelmed me… it is so tiny… she was so tiny… now she is big… THREE years old… healthy and happy… and that sweet tiny outfit fits a baby doll… a baby doll! We have come a long way only by the grace of God. So many blessings. When she was finally able to maintain her own body temperature and hit the magic weight that meant she could wear clothes, this precious outfit swallowed her… it was too big… too big! How does one receive such a tremendous gift and get to a place where pancakes, potty training, what time I can get to the gym, series finales like Lost and 24 distract me from spending every day thanking my God for His extraordinary provisions in my life? So, as with all my shortcomings, I apologize to Him and know that He knows my heart, He knows I will forever be thankful for my Emily Summer and Lila Seanne and for the ways He changed me by making me their mother… the good and the bad.. laughter and time outs… tiny preemie outfits and tutus in a size 3! I strive to do better… never forget the extraordinary gift that started it all as well as all the simple little gifts that arrive each and every day. I am so blessed and I want my life to reflect my tremendous thankfulness.
Our family verse…
“The LORD has done great things for us, and we are filled with joy.”
~Psalm 126:3
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This is precious! Thank you!
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